My Second Dead Show Deer Creek Music Center on 1990-07-19

Wow, found this on Internet Archive.  Anyways, this was my second Grateful Dead show. I will try to post a picture from it that I have at home in the parking lot.  But I love how they came out of space into watch tower.  I swear it sounded like a UFO landed, of course it could have been the .......

My Second Dead Show Deer Creek Music Center on 1990-07-19

Wow, found this on Internet Archive.  Anyways, this was my second Grateful Dead show. I will try to post a picture from it that I have at home in the parking lot.  But I love how they came out of space into watch tower.  I swear it sounded like a UFO landed, of course it could have been the .......

A Nightly Act of Contrition

I have made it a habit to mediate on my my day before I go to bed every evening.  This has really helped to strengthen me spiritually.  Taking the time to look at my faults during the day, help me realize where I am failing and where I have grown.  Afterwards I say the Act of Contrition.  This is really an amazing prayer the church has given us.

There are many different ones I have seen over the years.  I tend to combine a couple that I have been exposed to, but the roots of the Act of Contrition that I use is one I learned and heard as a child and is in a prayer book that was my Grandpa's (my mom's dad). 

But as I am getting ready for bed this evening, I thought I would post my Act of Contrition and ask for forgiveness and promise to continue to amend my life through the grace of our Lord.

Oh my God, I am heartily sorry for offending thee, for I detest all my sins, because I fear the lost Heaven and the pains of hell, but most of because they offend thee, my God, who is all good and deserving of all my love.  I firmly resolve, with the help of thy grace, to sin no more, to avoid the near occasion of sin and to amend my life.

In the name of Jesus Christ, have mercy on me.

Amend.

A Nightly Act of Contrition

I have made it a habit to mediate on my my day before I go to bed every evening.  This has really helped to strengthen me spiritually.  Taking the time to look at my faults during the day, help me realize where I am failing and where I have grown.  Afterwards I say the Act of Contrition.  This is really an amazing prayer the church has given us.

There are many different ones I have seen over the years.  I tend to combine a couple that I have been exposed to, but the roots of the Act of Contrition that I use is one I learned and heard as a child and is in a prayer book that was my Grandpa's (my mom's dad). 

But as I am getting ready for bed this evening, I thought I would post my Act of Contrition and ask for forgiveness and promise to continue to amend my life through the grace of our Lord.

Oh my God, I am heartily sorry for offending thee, for I detest all my sins, because I fear the lost Heaven and the pains of hell, but most of because they offend thee, my God, who is all good and deserving of all my love.  I firmly resolve, with the help of thy grace, to sin no more, to avoid the near occasion of sin and to amend my life.

In the name of Jesus Christ, have mercy on me.

Amend.

Time for a new prayer! :)

ok, I give! I do not have the motivation to pick up after myself. I guess it feels worthless since I am always alone, kinda like a pig, just waller in my my own caca.

I am going to have to take this to a higher authority. So, I am going to try to straighten up tonite while dinner is cooking in the slow cooker!

Supplication:

please lord, give me the strength and the will to clean up my home, to throw out what is not needed. To let go of meaningless material things. I am powerless over my slothfulness on he weekends and humbly ask you and your Blessed Mother for help in motivation.

Time for a new prayer! :)

ok, I give! I do not have the motivation to pick up after myself. I guess it feels worthless since I am always alone, kinda like a pig, just waller in my my own caca.

I am going to have to take this to a higher authority. So, I am going to try to straighten up tonite while dinner is cooking in the slow cooker!

Supplication:

please lord, give me the strength and the will to clean up my home, to throw out what is not needed. To let go of meaningless material things. I am powerless over my slothfulness on he weekends and humbly ask you and your Blessed Mother for help in motivation.

My will vs. God's will

We are creatures of habit.  Fortunately, through my life I have developed a habit of searching for the meaning of life.  What's it all about.  A higher plane of living.  Unfortunately, I spent a lot of time looking for this outside of God and Christ.  But, I have to admit, I have a greater understanding and love for my Catholic family tradition and spirituality today than most that have not taken the road less traveled.

As well, unfortunately, while traveling on this road, I have had a lot of practice of following my own will.  In the last 3 years, I have been learning to listen for God's will and to silence myself so I can.  When I first came back to the Church, I had one and only one real prayer (ok, two)

1. God, bless let me hear your  voice.

2. Please give me a spouse/partner in life.

But the main prayer was the first prayer.  I prayed it before Mass every Sunday, and almost every evening.  God answers his prayers, but in His will not our will.  By giving me trials in life, I have learned to turn to Him and let the Holy Spirit guide me so that I can find his will in my life.  

Today I find it much easier to live in his will.  Things that I thought were not sinful or poor behavior, today is.  I find myself wanting to stay way from things that will distance me from God, or put a wedge between our relationship.  I can actually say today that I have a "relationship" with Christ.

Today, I am praying to keep my mind and heart open to love, for the answer for prayer 2, by living His will.  In the past, I have used my will to look for love.  This goes hand in hand to the old saying "Looking for love in all the wrong places".  I am praying that God will lead me to the love that my soul desires.  The one that he has made me for.  God does not want us to be alone.  He created man and women to live together and share in His Love.  Today, I am not looking for love, but for the Light of our Blessed Mother and Christ to lead me to that love.  Keeping my heart open to ideals and situations that I would in the past have closed my heart off to, cause it didn't follow my will.

As I remain in Him and His love, He shall remain in me.  Christ will lead me to true love.

Supplication,

Please Lord fill my heart with your Divine love.  Lead me to the earthly love that my heart craves, but let your Love be full filling and all desiring.   Help me to live your will, and open my heart to the love you desire for my life.  Blessed Mother, guide me to your Son's ever lasting Light, that illuminates the mind and magnifies my soul.  St. Joesph, when I do find that love, please guide me in it.  To be fully attentive to her, to protect her and guide her as you guided our Blessed Mother through the dessert back to the place of your birth so that our Lord could be born in safety.  

In Christ I petition.

My will vs. God's will

We are creatures of habit.  Fortunately, through my life I have developed a habit of searching for the meaning of life.  What's it all about.  A higher plane of living.  Unfortunately, I spent a lot of time looking for this outside of God and Christ.  But, I have to admit, I have a greater understanding and love for my Catholic family tradition and spirituality today than most that have not taken the road less traveled.

As well, unfortunately, while traveling on this road, I have had a lot of practice of following my own will.  In the last 3 years, I have been learning to listen for God's will and to silence myself so I can.  When I first came back to the Church, I had one and only one real prayer (ok, two)

1. God, bless let me hear your  voice.

2. Please give me a spouse/partner in life.

But the main prayer was the first prayer.  I prayed it before Mass every Sunday, and almost every evening.  God answers his prayers, but in His will not our will.  By giving me trials in life, I have learned to turn to Him and let the Holy Spirit guide me so that I can find his will in my life.  

Today I find it much easier to live in his will.  Things that I thought were not sinful or poor behavior, today is.  I find myself wanting to stay way from things that will distance me from God, or put a wedge between our relationship.  I can actually say today that I have a "relationship" with Christ.

Today, I am praying to keep my mind and heart open to love, for the answer for prayer 2, by living His will.  In the past, I have used my will to look for love.  This goes hand in hand to the old saying "Looking for love in all the wrong places".  I am praying that God will lead me to the love that my soul desires.  The one that he has made me for.  God does not want us to be alone.  He created man and women to live together and share in His Love.  Today, I am not looking for love, but for the Light of our Blessed Mother and Christ to lead me to that love.  Keeping my heart open to ideals and situations that I would in the past have closed my heart off to, cause it didn't follow my will.

As I remain in Him and His love, He shall remain in me.  Christ will lead me to true love.

Supplication,

Please Lord fill my heart with your Divine love.  Lead me to the earthly love that my heart craves, but let your Love be full filling and all desiring.   Help me to live your will, and open my heart to the love you desire for my life.  Blessed Mother, guide me to your Son's ever lasting Light, that illuminates the mind and magnifies my soul.  St. Joesph, when I do find that love, please guide me in it.  To be fully attentive to her, to protect her and guide her as you guided our Blessed Mother through the dessert back to the place of your birth so that our Lord could be born in safety.  

In Christ I petition.

This morning.

Grrrrrrrrr! Don't you just hate it when you push snooze too many times on your alarm clock.  I so wanted to get up early so I can read through the Magnificat this morning and do my morning prayers.  Here is the morning prayer I missed.  I will try to read through them this morning, but I am not able to dedicate the concentration to allow my soul to sing the praises God so deserves while at work.

I am trying to let God's will run my body, mind and soul.  Its so hard sometimes.  Sometimes my will just barks and over shadows God's voice.  I need to tell that needy little puppy inside of me to quiet down and to listen to the Master's voice.  That's what my prayer time is for me.  That's what I missed this morning.  I know reading through the morning prayers at work is still good and God loves it just as much if I took the time to let my soul sing His praises, but it is also a perfect example how I let my will run.  Pushing snooze is such a meaningless thing, but its a prime example of my selfish will.  I feel, if I can break that selfish behavior, that it would be true progress for my soul.

Supplication:

Please Lord hear my prayers and my soul sing your praise.  Give me a new song to sing.  Take my eyes, mouth and ears and fill them with your love.  Allow me to see the beauty within all and to love with just a fraction of what your love is.  For your love is all giving and all glorious.  

Heavenly Mother and Queen, please take my hand and lead me to your Son, our God and His Spirit.  Fill me with your light, so that I can find my way back home into Your arms and carry me to our Lord who is all Love.

In Christ, Amen.

This morning.

Grrrrrrrrr! Don't you just hate it when you push snooze too many times on your alarm clock.  I so wanted to get up early so I can read through the Magnificat this morning and do my morning prayers.  Here is the morning prayer I missed.  I will try to read through them this morning, but I am not able to dedicate the concentration to allow my soul to sing the praises God so deserves while at work.

I am trying to let God's will run my body, mind and soul.  Its so hard sometimes.  Sometimes my will just barks and over shadows God's voice.  I need to tell that needy little puppy inside of me to quiet down and to listen to the Master's voice.  That's what my prayer time is for me.  That's what I missed this morning.  I know reading through the morning prayers at work is still good and God loves it just as much if I took the time to let my soul sing His praises, but it is also a perfect example how I let my will run.  Pushing snooze is such a meaningless thing, but its a prime example of my selfish will.  I feel, if I can break that selfish behavior, that it would be true progress for my soul.

Supplication:

Please Lord hear my prayers and my soul sing your praise.  Give me a new song to sing.  Take my eyes, mouth and ears and fill them with your love.  Allow me to see the beauty within all and to love with just a fraction of what your love is.  For your love is all giving and all glorious.  

Heavenly Mother and Queen, please take my hand and lead me to your Son, our God and His Spirit.  Fill me with your light, so that I can find my way back home into Your arms and carry me to our Lord who is all Love.

In Christ, Amen.

Mary

I was walking

my feet leading my mind

reminding myself the feelings I have today

wont last forever

Feeling lost in my own thoughts

I turned to my heart

knowing that her love is always there

leading me to true love and wisdom

Her light is unwavering

Her light is true

She leads you to love

that burns so true

It was raining

and I was without a jacket

feeling run down and dead

She shelters me from my storm

Knowing that I am not alone

but always feeling that way

until i open my heart

and let her lead the way

Her light is unwavering

Her light is true

She leads you to love

that burns so true

She sings in my heart

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

leading me out of the darkness 

and into His Light

She sings in my heart

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

Mary

I was walking

my feet leading my mind

reminding myself the feelings I have today

wont last forever

Feeling lost in my own thoughts

I turned to my heart

knowing that her love is always there

leading me to true love and wisdom

Her light is unwavering

Her light is true

She leads you to love

that burns so true

It was raining

and I was without a jacket

feeling run down and dead

She shelters me from my storm

Knowing that I am not alone

but always feeling that way

until i open my heart

and let her lead the way

Her light is unwavering

Her light is true

She leads you to love

that burns so true

She sings in my heart

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

leading me out of the darkness 

and into His Light

She sings in my heart

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"

"Magnificat anima mea Dominum"